Editing the Whole Book and will continue - fox

I am now editing the book from chapter 1..and now in chapter 28 San Jose.

- I also changed the name of Rey (ka sex nya sa probinsya) to Edward so there will
be no conclusion

- I had bookmarked also the names of the characters so there will be no confusion since
there were many significant charter in book 2.

- I might also change the outcome of the book and twist its story.

_ In the meantime please read again from book 1 chapter 1

thanks
fox

Updates

Readers...sorry....this Real Estate thing is eating me up.  Also, I forgot the storyline...sa sobrang haba..I need to read it again from the start...kasi after chapter 16 sa probinsya...bumilis yung kwento.

Dear Readers,

I'm currently down right now in terms of positive thinking and being constructive in my life.
I dreamed about my dog.  I think I cried in my dreams...seeing my dog Rodney (rothweiler) alive again.  He was looking healthy and young in that dream. 

There are things in life wherein you cannot resolve or try to hide away from it, or simply your brain, not willing to accept it.

Life is a non ending challenge.  Until our last breath...we will have questions..we will die with a challenge.

Good morning.

October 16 2015

Dear Readers:

I seriously don't know where to start.

Recently, I had been promoted again  for Global Sales.  As much as I hate to see and compare

the story I had written years back, it seems that things are folding to what I had written.

I will be honest here.  When I wrote this story, I was madly in love with Jake.  Of course, that is not his real name.  Jake is a person, who has a good personality, wherein, most people would fall in love too.

Of course, when I wrote this series of Parausan, we were on the verge of breaking up. If I remember well, that was 2006.  Then I went to Melbourne Australia to stay away from him.  Feeling bored there for 3 months, I started this series.

The first chapter was published in G4M blogsite, which doesn't exist anymore.  It was about my real experience in the province when I was young. Of course, some were fabricated to excite the readers.

Then the readers like it, and for me to continue, so my imagination gave in to write a series.

As of now, we are not in good terms with each other. (jake)

He has his own life and I have mine.  Our minds seems to be in opposite direction.  I'm in the

corporate world, and he is with his small scale businesses.  He surrounds himself with people,

who are much lower than him, intellectually and financially wise.  While I"m the opposite. I surround myself with CEO's of Global companies.

Back to Real Estate.  What a dreadful word.  I never dreamed of being on it or being employed as a sales person.  My boss recruited me, who was my agent before when I bought my first condo at the Fort.  That was 2010, 4 years later after writing Parausan.

COINCIDENCE:

First, when I wrote the story, I chose Pacific Star Building.  I chose that building, because it was close to my house.  Then an anonymous user wrote me if I knew the famous brothers.  I replied no.  I have no idea whatsoever, that a big real estate company is housed in that Building.

Second, worst, I was recruited in that company.  The salary offered to me was P 35,000.  Which was the exact salary of Jake when he was offered as a translator for a real estate company.

NOW:

I went up the ladder.  Of course, I met the famous brothers.   Now, it seems that, what I wrote years back is happening, the way I wrote the story.  I have big deals, wherein I always deal with the son of the owner.

In our last meeting, he was really nice to me.  He was always catching up my attention.  Of course, I'm scared.  As much as I want to avoid, of what might happen in the book, I would rather be fired, than to make the book a reality.

He is a dream come true.  He is smart, educated and rich, plus buff and with a cute face.

We will meet again next month in Japan.  Lets see what happens.

BTW...every time I"m here in Bangkok, that's the time I open up this blog and update it.  My question is why Bangkok?

I have a meeting here with a big Japanese Firm and doing a partnership in sales.

Yes, that's my job now...recruiting corporate firm to sell for us in other countries.

Lets see....

To all...thanks for all your support.

Although, we haven't see each other or know each other...we close to each one.

FOX

Dear Readers,

We are back...Forgot my password, and finally recovered back my account.

Since I cannot post anymore in my FB account, since it is swamp by my clients.

Here I can say what I want.

I'm in Bangkok right now.  Then back to Singapore to do some roadshows.

Fox

Book 2 Chapter 31 Bangkok Part 3

Samantalang...sa isang taxi...papuntang Suvarnabhumi airport...pabalik ng pinas ay naka sakay si Andrew at malalim ang kanyang ini isip.

"Ayoko na...sorry Jake...di ko kaya...ayoko na ng complication"

"Dyos ko...sana di ako habulin ni Jordan...asan na kaya yun...."

"Di na din ako makaka balik kay Dr. Ralph....pinatay na sya...baka dyos ko..ako ang isunod nila"

"Babalik nalang ako sa probinsya....mas tahimik buhay ko dun...at mag tatayo ako ng maliit na tindahan"

"Ano ba itong pinasok ko...dapat nanahimik nalang ako sa pinas...hayyy....buhay"

========================================================================

Bumukas ang elevator sa 32 floor kung asan ang kwarto ni Richard.  Wala pa ding ka malay malay si Monica sa mga nangyayari.  Sinubukan nya kumatok...pero walang sumasagot.

"Shet...Richard...hello...Monica here...Richard..kindly open the door!"

nag antay si Monica..pero wala pa din...at kumatok ulit.

"Richard!!...Monica here..open the god damn door...shet!"

Tinatawagan ni Monica ang cellphone ni Richard pero out of reach pa din...kung alam lang nya eh asa ilalim ng ilog ang cellphone na tinatawagan nya.

"Shet...asan ka Richard?"

"San kaya itong bakla nag punta?"

Bumaba si Monica sa coffee shop....umorder ng kape para mag antay...at dun nya nakita...sa TV....ang mga larawan ni Richard at ang pag sagip ng mga thai authorities sa lumulutang na taxi

"Shet...What happened??...Oh my god...Richard?..Shet!"

Tumayo si Monica kahit di pa binabayaran ang order to sumakay ng taxi papunta sa hotel nya.

Habang asa taxi...

"Shet..ano to?  mukang nalaman na ata nila jake ang plano....ano gagawin ko"  pabulong ni monica

"Parang di ko na ito kaya...uwi kaya ako ng pinas?  pero hindi..para kong nilaglag si richard at mag tatagumpay ang mga hayop na yun....lalo na yung putang lilibeth"

"Alam kona...may pera pa naman ako..."  tumwag si monica sa cellphone nya..

"Hello...hi general...its me again...remember?"

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Sa loob naman ng kwarto ni Isa...andun si Boy at lilibeth.

"Boy....di sinasagot ni andrew"  sabat ni lilibeth

"ha?  bakit?  asan yun"

"di ko alam...."  habang si andrew ay bumaba ng airport at na cue na para sa flight nya sa cebu.

"sige hayaan muna yun....taga rito naman yun ehh"

"okay"  sabat ni lilibeth...

"Ayan na!!"  pasigaw ni Isabel

"alin"  patanong ni boy

"yung barge....mahaharang na nila yung taxi...please god...please"

"dyos ko jake....iligtas mo sarile mo please..I love you jake"  pabulong ni boy.

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Habang sa loob ng taxi sa ilog

"di kita kilala..di ko alam pinag sasabi mo"  papagud na salita ni jake

"hayop ka mark..di pa tayo tapos..di mo ma aagaw si boy..kahit ubusin ko pera ko "

"mahal ko si boy.....pano sya magiging iyo?"

"mas mahal ko sya...hayop ka..itinakwil mo sya"

"hindi...di ko magagawa yun...sya lang ang minahal ko"

"Ulol mo!  kaya nga sya napunta sa kumpanya ko"

"mahal ko si boy....sya lang.....sya lang ang minahal ko"

Ng biglang may kalabog na malakas....bumangga pala ang taxi sa barge na iniharang sa ilog...

Ang buong thailand ay nanood...pati ang CNN eh nakisama na sa telecast sa ibang bansa....

Lahat ay nag dadasal para masalo ang taxi...at mailigtas ang tatlo na asa loob....pero lumulutang na yung thai na taxi driver...patay nato sa pag hulog pa lang..tumama ang kanyang ulo sa harapan ng sasakyan.

========================================================================

Sa airport sa Naia 2

Nag aabang na si Carla ng boarding....at ina alalayan ang tyan nya....malalim ang kanyang ini isip...naka tingin lang sa labas ng airport

"Pano kung mawala si jordan at bumalik si mark....pano itong dinadala ko...sya lang ang may alam "

"Di ko alam kung papa laglag ko itong bata sa bangkok..para mawala na itong problema ko..."

"mapapaphiya ako nito ....sa kanila...na pinag samantalahan ko ang kahinaan ni mark sa pag iisip"

"dyos ko..ano itong nagawa ko"

Malalim ang pag iisip nya ng biglang may nag salita sa harap na

"Carla?"  "buntis ka?"  "Congrats!"  si Bobby...ang artistang sumikat at inalagaan nila Carla at jake.

"Bobby?"

"O..ako nga Carla"

"Papunta kang bangkok?"  sabay sila nag salita

"oo...susundan ko si mark"  sabat ni bobby

"ako din"  sabat ni Carla

"Nag asawa ka na pala"

"ako?  ha...oo...taga cebu din...."

"that's good..ano pangalan nya"

"ahh ehh....Jordan"

"wow....nice name..."

"Pano mo nalaman bobby?"

"tungkol san"

"kay mark...kay jake...sa nangyayari sa bangkok"

"kay bernie..diba tinawagan mo sya...."

"shet oo nga pala..sila humahawak sayo"

"Carla...alam mo mahal ko si mark...di ko sya pababayaan...at aagawin ko sya kay boy
na may tangka sa kanyang patayin sya"

"No bobby..you're wrong"

"what?"

"Bumaliktad na si boy...he's on our side now"

"ha?  pano nangyari yun?  si richard?"

"ayun nag suntukan sila..kaya nauwi sa ilog yung taxi"

Nag isip ng malalim si bobby...di nya alam kung ano ang kanyang iisipin.  Alam nya
na mas lamang si boy sa kanya.

"Boarding na ata....tayo na daw Carla"

"okay...paabot nga"  patayo si carla na hirap dahil sa dinadala

Naglakad ang 2 sa gate at pumila.

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Habang sa Ilog...

Huminto din ang taxi...at naharang ng isang malaking barge na lumulutang....bumaba ang isang thai....at tinalian ang taxi para di na ito kumalas....

Pagka lipas...ay binuksan nito ang pinto...at iniligtas si Richard at Jake.

Nag palakpakan ang lahat sa Thailand ng naligtas ang 2 at binuhat ng stretcher papuntang ospital ang 2.

Samantalang sa kwarto ni Isabel sa Shangrila Hotel

"Yehey...dyos ko..salamat Lord...naligtas sila"  sigaw ni Isabel

"Tara na...punta na tayo sa ospital"  sabat ni boy

"Boy...may text...si Carla at bobby daw...susunod dito" sabat ni Lilibeth

"ha? "  yun lang ang nasabi ni boy....alam nya...may complication ang 2 na parating at kaagaw
sa puso ni mark.

end of Part 3

"

Book 2 Chapter 31 Bangkok Part 2

Sa tagal na pag agos at pag lutang ng taxi ni Jordan at Richard...ay naging instant telecast ito sa lahat ng television sa Thailand.  Lahat ng camera eh asa ilog at helicopter at sinusundan sa kahabaan ng ilog.

Sa loob ng taxi ay nauna nagising si Jordan...

"asan ako....Udo..iligtas moko....sumabog ang dam.....Udo!!" sigaw ni Jake.  Bumalik ang ala-ala nya...at si Jordan ay naging Jake.

"Carla....Carla..." sabat ni Jake..

"Putangina mo!  Baliw ka talaga kahit kelan"  pasigaw ni Richard.

"ha?"  nabigla si jake na walang ka malay malay kung sino kaharap nya

"  Oo ikaw putangina mo..hayop ka Mark...inagaw mo lahat sakin...putangina mo!"

"anong inagaw ko?"

"lahat...pati si boy"

"Si boy?....asan sya?"

"Malay ko sa inyo...eh kayong dalawa magkasama"

"Wala akong ma ala ala...bakit tayo andidito sa taxi at ina agos sa ilog"

" Gago..kagagawan mo to..hayop ka...gusto mokong patayin..ayan...parehas na tayong mamamatay ngayon"

Habang ang mga Thai Police at mga rescue eh nag abang na ng malaking barge na  pang harang sa taxi para hindi ito tumuloy sa pag agos sa ilog.

Samantala...sa hotel sa kwarto ni Isa ay nanood sila sa TV ng live telecast ng pag agos ng taxi nila mark at richard.

"Pano kaya sila maliligtas eh sabi sa TV..na super lakas ng agos ng ilog na yan at sa lapad nya...mahihirapan daw boy"

"makaka gawa sila ng paraan..diba mag lalagay nga ng barge sa dulo ng ilog...bago pumasok sa Indian Ocean"
Biglang may tawag sa cell ni Boy.

"Boy...dito nako sa taxi...ano balita sa TV"  sabat ni Lilibeth

"Ganun pa din ina agos sa ilog....asan si andrew?"  sabat ni boy

"Aba...ewan ko..sige tawagan ko..dyan tayo lahat sa Shang...mas maganda na sama sama tayo"

"okay...maganda yun Lilibeth" sabat ni boy

Bumaba si Lilibeth sa taxi nag mamadali.  Halos tumatakbo sa lobby ng shangrila at pumunta agad sa elevator at pinindot ang 24.  Pag lingon nya at nabigla sya sa nakita nya sa loob ng elevator.

" Well Well Well...look who's here" sabat ni Monica na suot na malaking hat sa ulo at naka sunglasses pa din
" Well Well Well...ang burikak ng Sta Ana cabaret!" sabat ni Lilibeth

"Well..at least hindi kabit na social climber na pina manahan lang ng isang matanda"

"Inggit ka lang...dahil ikaw...mahirap pa din...no matter what you do Monica...isa ka pa ding puta
na patay gutom"

"Ouchh....sakit nun ha...di ko carry"

"Eto carry mo"  biglang sinampal ni Lilibeth si monica at tumilansik yung salamin at hat nya at napa higa sa sahig sa lakas ng sampal

"putangina ka...hayop ka talaga..SQUATTER!"  sigaw ni Monica

"Ay ...Floor ko na....bye bitch!...and that is where you belong...sa sahig"  sabat ni Lilibeth

"Hayop!  Squatter!  Kabit!  Puta! gaganti ako sayo"  pagalit na sigaw ni lilibeth habang sumara ang elevator.

End of Part 2 Chapter 31 Bangkok.

Message from Honolulu Hawaii

Dear Readers,

I feel so guilty reading your comments. I am honestly confuse re my feelings about updating this blog.
If I force myself to continue writing it..and without the proper ventilation for my writing,
I might ended up writing trash.

I'm still busy with my work wherein I got a job in Real Estate. A work and place
that I wrote years back in this book and where I ended up being employed. Weird but true.

Thank you for all the kind words.

I will really try...to continue book 2 and end it....I just really wanted to start book 3.

fox

Boracay 12-31-12

This is the street where it all started. This is in San Miguel Iloilo. Now I'm announcing the towns name.

Went back here after so many years. The house of my tita is big now since she was a nurse in New York for so long. The old house was retained and was converted as a servants quarter where I used to live. The old mango tree was still there. Didn't have time to take a picture.

It was mind boggling for me to go back. I visited my Lola's grave. Wanted to roam around town but was scared that I will meet people who abused me before. From I heard from my tita...they look very old now..they are in their 60's already. Damn, that's too old for me. I don't wanna be scared seeing them again.

I'm in boracay now celebrating new years eve here. I have my own cottage with a balcony and a table where I can write. I guess I can only write if I'm secluded from Manila.

Can somebody help me summarize what happened in this book and loopholes...there are characters that I completely forgot to put in. Just comment here.

As I mentioned before, I'm no longer in love with Jake. He's still around and he's my friend in FB. He has his own life...a life that I don't wanna live. I proceeded with my corporate ladder way and he is still going out with girls and gays...for money.

I guess we can't change some people. The only people that we can change is ourselves.

Happy new year to everybody. At least I'm back here. For now, I will just blog what's happening to me until I will have the urge to continue the book.

fox

Updates

From the Author: Fox I'm really sorry for the readers of Parausan. Maraming nangyari sa buhay ko and I think you also have the right to know what's going on in my life. Well, I'm into real estate now, but most of the time, I'm based abroad like the US, Singapore, Malaysia, etc. So definitely, I can't have any time to continue the book. As much as I want to continue the story, a lot of things enters my mind.... I think I have to confess that the real reason why my inspiration with the book went down is because I am no longer in love with Jake. Funny thing is, I thought that love was forever...hindi pala....kahit sobrang attracted kami sa isa't isa. I settled with my former...and we have been together for the past 15 years now. I am currently here in Kuala lumpur...sick with colds and flu...in a hotel.. I can't even compose this post...magulo din...magulo utak ko in short...I tried to publish other books like sabi ng dyos...but the story is too deep and scientific in nature. Or siguro, I'm scared to make a mistake in typing the next chapters...dahil dati kasi maganda na ang story...tapos dahil sa gulo ng utak ko...magugulo din ang story. We writers goes with our moods and emotions...what we write is what we really are...it is our manifestations...our deep thoughts... That's all for now... Fox

Chapter 32 Bangkok (Book 2)

Asa Cebu si Carla nung tumawag si boy sa kanya. "oh my God" yun ang unang response ni Carla. "Don't worry Carla maayos din namin yan" sabat ni Boy "Please boy...you know he isn't that well yet at hindi na kumpleto yung treatment ni jake" "You mean Mark?" "Mark, Jake, Rey...whatever..isang tao lang yan Boy" "Eh yung Jordan?" sabat ni Boy Tumahimik ng matagal si Carla. Akala ni Boy ay naputol ang line. "Carla..u there?" pero wala pa ding sumasagot ng kamuntikan ng ibaba ni boy at sinabi na "Naputol ata...Carla..hello" "Boy...yeah..I'm here" "Akala ko wala ka na" "Yes..ano ulit yun?" "Sana maka punta ka dito..I know its very risky, but I think I have Richard and his group under control" Habang hinihimas ni Carla ang kanyang tyan na 8 months na... "Boy...I will try" "hmm...that doesn't sounds like you Carla" "Ewan ko boy..lately...masama parati pakiramdam ko" "But Carla...Jake can die and we don't know his situation..this is a matter of life and death...but anyways...we really need you here..alam mo naman ikaw lang ang close ni Jake" "I know....okay..I will really try Boy" Binaba ni Carla ang phone. Nag iisip ng malalim at kina kausap ang sarile. "My God...what is happening...God please save Jake...don't take him away from me...at alam mo dinadala ko ang anak nya..." Ng Biglang humagulgol si Carla at nag sisigaw... "Buntis with Jordan!!....oh God...why? si Jordan!..." Lumuhod si Carla sa sahig habang umi iyak...di nya malaman kung ano gagawin at kung pano nya itatago at itatanggi na buntis sya. End of Part 1

Deleting the Last Chapter

I am deleting the last chapter. From the reponse, it seems that there was an unfavorable comments. Also, I have to admit that I wrote it in a rush. As a writer, I should be open minded and not egoistic and criticize my own work. Right now, I'm still here in the US, in Los Angeles, doing my job as a Global Network Director of a Real Estate Company. Sounds like the book. I don't even know if this book is guiding my future. Me and Boy got the same salary when we started in Pacific Star Building. I did not also know that there was an existing real estate company in that building. Let's see how it goes. Probably, I will write a side note in regards to the similarity of my life with the characters in the book. I am redoing the "Sabi ng Dyos" from scratch. I hate those flashbacks. Fox

Review last chapter released

Chapter 31 Mark
Lumubog ang taxi sa Chao Praya River na malakas ang agos...pero dahil sa naka aircon ito ay lumutang ito muli at tinangay ng agos. Marami ang naka kita nito habang ina agos ito sa mahabang ilog ng Bangkok Thailand. Ni report ito ng mga naka kita...at gumawa ang mga rescue team ng paraan para masalo ang taxi na ina agos.

Samantala..habang ina agos ang taxi ay parehas na walang malay ang tatlo sa taxi..ang driver..si mark at si richard. Unti unti ng pumapasok ang tubig sa loob ng taxi pero wala pa ding malay ang tatlo.

Kumalat ang balita sa buong Bangkok tungkol dito sa ina agos na taxi...maya maya pa ay ito ay na broadcast na sa mga radyo at TV...at sinusundan ng helicopter ng ABTV 1 na government run television channel. Mga ilang minuto pa din ay ito na broadcast na din sa ibang channel at lahat ng tao ay asa ilog para matanaw itong taxi na tinatangay ng malakas na agos ng ilog.

Maya maya..sa kwarto ni Isa...ay may malakas na katok...

"Isa..Isa..buksan mo pinto" si boy na nag panic na

Tumakbo si Isa papunta sa pinto para buksan at alamin kung ano ang nangyayari..

"boy bakit"

"buksan mo Tv"

"bakit?"

"nakita ko ang muka ni richard at mark"

"san?"

"bilis buksan mo" at binuksan nila ang tv..pag bukas ay naka focus ang camera sa taxi na ina agos at minsan ay nakukunan ng close up ang asa loob ng taxi para malaman kung sino ang naka sakay dito

"shet..si mark at richard yan"

"exactly Isa...pero pano sila napunta dyan? diba kasama natin si mark kanina?"

" Oo at si kuya..diba pina alis ng hotel?"

"Shet! alam ko na" sabat ni boy

"Ano yun boy"

"sinundan ni mark si richard...nakikita mo yung mga dugo sa ulo ni mark..at sa kuya mo"

"boy..mukang nag away sila...shet..hingi tayo ng tulong boy"

"Isa..ayan na lahat....buong Thailand eh nanood na..at gumagawa ng rescue"

"boy ano gagawin natin"

"Isa wala...inform natin sila Carla, si lilibeth at sila bernie sa manila"

"sige tawagan na natin...God..sana maligtas sila...Boy..." at biglang humagulgol si Isa..

"Boy...kahit galit ako kay Kuya..kapatid ko pa din yan..."

"naintindihan kita Isa..lika mag tawag na tayo...walang mangyayari kung magiging emotional tayo dito Isa"

Tumawag sila Isa at Boy sa lahat nilang kilala...sa Bangkok, Manila, Cebu at Iloilo kung san umi ikot ang mga buhay nila.

Samantala sa taxi..habang napupuno na ito ng tubig ay biglang nagising na si Mark....bumalik ang kanyang isipan sa Iloilo...ang pag sabog ng dam...at ang kanyang laban sa tubig at agos ng ilog...parang naulit ang lahat...kung san nag simula ang kanyang pag kaka watak watak ng pagkatao.

end of Part 1 Chapter 31 Mark

Finish the book

Okay since I will not be busy this December and I will be at the office..I will finish book 2...once and for all...before I leave again for the US end of Jan.

August 28, 2011

Well, now I'm here in San Francisco...as usual..expect the unexpected. I need to adopt to a lot of things and of course the learning curve again...in terms of lifestyle, direction, etc.

Soon I will review the book again..since I forgot the details already again...for the nth time...and start writing.

Aug 2 2011

Here I go again with these moments. For the book, sorry, but I promise I will continue and finish it.

I'm leaving for the US next week and right now, I am full of anxiety and presumption, in regards to what will happen to me over there. It was like 6 years ago, since my last trip to California. And that was boring..and that was the reason why I never came back.

But now, I'm going for a business trip. Who knows what will happen...but geez...it will be months...minimum of 2 months...I'm just wondering if I can stay there that long. Yes I've worked, studied and lived there..but that was ages...

Now, I'm so stress out...thinking of what I will leave here in Manila. My lifestyle...my routine...my room...my dogs...my friends..etc.

But...we need to take a leap or jump sometimes in our lives..and this is what it is. But with more time in the US...i guess I can go back to my writing...just like in Melbourne.

that's it for now. wish me luck....hope we can make tons of sales in the US.

Update on myself

I"m here in subic now..alone with my dog. This is where I recharge myself...self realization...and do what I love without anybody looking or dictating me what to do. I watch DVD marathons of my favorites movies and TV series. I kept them here even though I'm seldom here. This is my sanctuary, where all the things that I love are here.

Like my story, my life is so complicated. It is not a simple villain/protagonist situation. I prefer to be alone and yet, I have a 13 years partner. I hate family and yet I still live with my family. I hate working but now I'm working again.

I can't relate to anybody since, most of my friends are either selfish or they don't have for me. I listen to them, but it is always one way. A friend never listened to me since they always knew me as a strong person and with a strong conviction.

Over the years, I did not adjust myself to anybody. I stood up to what I am now. I stood up for my individuality. I don't care if what I did is right...what I know is, when I die...I can tell God that I lived the life that I was suppose to..and NOT ACCORDING TO ANYBODY.

Over the years, I thought that as I grow older, problems would subside and wherein my maturity will cover for the stress and disturbances. But I was wrong...very wrong...there wasn't any difference when I was 19 and now.

I am a very passionate and kind person. I love to give...but I'm also a perfectionist. I never got any interest in acquiring wealth or money that I don't really need...and probably that's why I'm still poor up to now when it comes to cash balance. I might have assets in the millions but I'm cash strap. I had established businesses wherein no other person in this planet can compare to what I had accomplished...not because I want to be rich but because I just want to experienced it.

So why am I blogging or propagating myself here? because I have no one...I don't have those friends who will understand and console me...my long time partner won't even give a damn about me...nor my mom or my close relatives...because they know..I was a survivor and I will remain one...

But a survivor also have some feelings too...I feel sad...I feel alone...I cry...I smile..I laugh...and we want to relate things...just to check what reality is. I am very depressed right now and my escapism is to write..write and write. This is my escapism.

I think that's it.

Chapter 31 Mark

Lumubog ang taxi sa Chao Praya River na malakas ang agos...pero dahil sa naka aircon ito ay lumutang ito muli at tinangay ng agos. Marami ang naka kita nito habang ina agos ito sa mahabang ilog ng Bangkok Thailand. Ni report ito ng mga naka kita...at gumawa ang mga rescue team ng paraan para masalo ang taxi na ina agos.

Samantala..habang ina agos ang taxi ay parehas na walang malay ang tatlo sa taxi..ang driver..si mark at si richard. Unti unti ng pumapasok ang tubig sa loob ng taxi pero wala pa ding malay ang tatlo.

Kumalat ang balita sa buong Bangkok tungkol dito sa ina agos na taxi...maya maya pa ay ito ay na broadcast na sa mga radyo at TV...at sinusundan ng helicopter ng ABTV 1 na government run television channel. Mga ilang minuto pa din ay ito na broadcast na din sa ibang channel at lahat ng tao ay asa ilog para matanaw itong taxi na tinatangay ng malakas na agos ng ilog.

Maya maya..sa kwarto ni Isa...ay may malakas na katok...

"Isa..Isa..buksan mo pinto" si boy na nag panic na

Tumakbo si Isa papunta sa pinto para buksan at alamin kung ano ang nangyayari..

"boy bakit"

"buksan mo Tv"

"bakit?"

"nakita ko ang muka ni richard at mark"

"san?"

"bilis buksan mo" at binuksan nila ang tv..pag bukas ay naka focus ang camera sa taxi na ina agos at minsan ay nakukunan ng close up ang asa loob ng taxi para malaman kung sino ang naka sakay dito

"shet..si mark at richard yan"

"exactly Isa...pero pano sila napunta dyan? diba kasama natin si mark kanina?"

" Oo at si kuya..diba pina alis ng hotel?"

"Shet! alam ko na" sabat ni boy

"Ano yun boy"

"sinundan ni mark si richard...nakikita mo yung mga dugo sa ulo ni mark..at sa kuya mo"

"boy..mukang nag away sila...shet..hingi tayo ng tulong boy"

"Isa..ayan na lahat....buong Thailand eh nanood na..at gumagawa ng rescue"

"boy ano gagawin natin"

"Isa wala...inform natin sila Carla, si lilibeth at sila bernie sa manila"

"sige tawagan na natin...God..sana maligtas sila...Boy..." at biglang humagulgol si Isa..

"Boy...kahit galit ako kay Kuya..kapatid ko pa din yan..."

"naintindihan kita Isa..lika mag tawag na tayo...walang mangyayari kung magiging emotional tayo dito Isa"

Tumawag sila Isa at Boy sa lahat nilang kilala...sa Bangkok, Manila, Cebu at Iloilo kung san umi ikot ang mga buhay nila.

Samantala sa taxi..habang napupuno na ito ng tubig ay biglang nagising na si Mark....bumalik ang kanyang isipan sa Iloilo...ang pag sabog ng dam...at ang kanyang laban sa tubig at agos ng ilog...parang naulit ang lahat...kung san nag simula ang kanyang pag kaka watak watak ng pagkatao.

end of Part 1 Chapter 31 Mark

Chapter 30 Jordan and Boy Part 3

Tumambay si Jordan sa hotel na yun at inabangan si Richard. Matindi ang galit ni Jordan kay Richard dahil sya ang pinag hihinalaan na pumatay kay Michael. Habang naninigarilyo si Jordan ay biglang syang may naisip.

Kinausap nya ang taxi para abangan si Richard. Dahil alam nya na dun lalabas ang mga guest pag check out. Nauuna ang taxi sa pila at tuwing may guest na lalabas ay hindi nya ito pina pa abante dahil naka abang lang ito kay richard. Sinabihan nya ang taxi driver na surpresahin ang isang kapatid kaya mag tatago sya sa silya pag sundo.

Ng makita ni Jordan si Richard, ay pina abante nya ang taxi. Yumuko sya sa taxi para hindi makita at ini labas nito ang baril sa bag nyang dala. Pag sakay ni Richard sa likod ay nakita nito si Jordan na Mark/Jake ang kanyang pag kaka kilala.

"jake?" pag tataka ni Richard

Nilabas ni Richard ang baril at nagsalita

"pasok!" pagalit na sabi ni Jordan

"sir..sir..excuse me sir...not allowed" nag salita ng thai english yung driver

"shut up! just follow what I tell you...move..at ikaw richard sakay! or papasabugin ko parehas bungo nyo"

Pumasok si Richard sa Taxi at umabante ang taxi...

"Jake..ano problema?" patakot na tanong ni Richard habang naka tutok sa kanya ang baril

"Gago..nag tatanong ka pa..ikaw pumatay kay Michael"

Nagtaka si Richard..

"ako pumatay kay Michael?"

"leche..ang dami mo pang sinasabi"

"jake hindi ako pumatay kay Michael"

"tangina mo eh sino?"

"honestly di ko din alam at pina pa imbestiga ko din..kasi baka ako din isunod"

"ulol..wag moko lokohin"

"jake..relax ka lang...may leads ako...makinig ka please.."

"leads ha..sige sino?"

"ang mga umali"

"Umali? diba patay na yun"

"yung anak nya...nag hire yun ng hitman na military"

"tapos? tangina mo...sige..salita"

"alam ni Sgt Genaro yan...diba..sya pina pa imbestiga mo...tauhan ko din sya"

Nag isip ng malalim si Jordan...dahil kailangan nya bumalik sa katauhan ni Jake...dahil biglang bumalik sa utak ni Jordan na dapat inasikaso pa ni Jake si Sgt Genaro...umikot ang mga mata nito..at nahilo...

Nakita ito ng driver at ang ginawa ng driver ay biglang lumiko para ma out of balance si Jordan...at ang hindi alam ng driver ay diretso pala sa ilog ang daan na yun...at nahulog ang taxi sa ilog..kasama si Jordan na naging Jake ngayon, si Richard at ang Taxi driver.

end of Chapter 30

Jan 24 2011

I don't know if I have to wait for Feb 3 chinese new year for me to be lucky. For now...the pavements are there but the money isn't coming in yet. I still don't have any sale at Century Properties up to now and its going to be my 3rd month.

I just think it will be easier for me to be out of payroll rather than having a payroll wherein I'm so pressured. And probably do what I have to do. Why will I hire when I can do it myself right? I had mastered the art of working already so I think I am ready for other businesses and also finish this book.

May God just lead me to make the right decision.