Boracay 12-31-12

This is the street where it all started. This is in San Miguel Iloilo. Now I'm announcing the towns name.

Went back here after so many years. The house of my tita is big now since she was a nurse in New York for so long. The old house was retained and was converted as a servants quarter where I used to live. The old mango tree was still there. Didn't have time to take a picture.

It was mind boggling for me to go back. I visited my Lola's grave. Wanted to roam around town but was scared that I will meet people who abused me before. From I heard from my tita...they look very old now..they are in their 60's already. Damn, that's too old for me. I don't wanna be scared seeing them again.

I'm in boracay now celebrating new years eve here. I have my own cottage with a balcony and a table where I can write. I guess I can only write if I'm secluded from Manila.

Can somebody help me summarize what happened in this book and loopholes...there are characters that I completely forgot to put in. Just comment here.

As I mentioned before, I'm no longer in love with Jake. He's still around and he's my friend in FB. He has his own life...a life that I don't wanna live. I proceeded with my corporate ladder way and he is still going out with girls and gays...for money.

I guess we can't change some people. The only people that we can change is ourselves.

Happy new year to everybody. At least I'm back here. For now, I will just blog what's happening to me until I will have the urge to continue the book.

fox

Updates

From the Author: Fox I'm really sorry for the readers of Parausan. Maraming nangyari sa buhay ko and I think you also have the right to know what's going on in my life. Well, I'm into real estate now, but most of the time, I'm based abroad like the US, Singapore, Malaysia, etc. So definitely, I can't have any time to continue the book. As much as I want to continue the story, a lot of things enters my mind.... I think I have to confess that the real reason why my inspiration with the book went down is because I am no longer in love with Jake. Funny thing is, I thought that love was forever...hindi pala....kahit sobrang attracted kami sa isa't isa. I settled with my former...and we have been together for the past 15 years now. I am currently here in Kuala lumpur...sick with colds and flu...in a hotel.. I can't even compose this post...magulo din...magulo utak ko in short...I tried to publish other books like sabi ng dyos...but the story is too deep and scientific in nature. Or siguro, I'm scared to make a mistake in typing the next chapters...dahil dati kasi maganda na ang story...tapos dahil sa gulo ng utak ko...magugulo din ang story. We writers goes with our moods and emotions...what we write is what we really are...it is our manifestations...our deep thoughts... That's all for now... Fox

Chapter 32 Bangkok (Book 2)

Asa Cebu si Carla nung tumawag si boy sa kanya. "oh my God" yun ang unang response ni Carla. "Don't worry Carla maayos din namin yan" sabat ni Boy "Please boy...you know he isn't that well yet at hindi na kumpleto yung treatment ni jake" "You mean Mark?" "Mark, Jake, Rey...whatever..isang tao lang yan Boy" "Eh yung Jordan?" sabat ni Boy Tumahimik ng matagal si Carla. Akala ni Boy ay naputol ang line. "Carla..u there?" pero wala pa ding sumasagot ng kamuntikan ng ibaba ni boy at sinabi na "Naputol ata...Carla..hello" "Boy...yeah..I'm here" "Akala ko wala ka na" "Yes..ano ulit yun?" "Sana maka punta ka dito..I know its very risky, but I think I have Richard and his group under control" Habang hinihimas ni Carla ang kanyang tyan na 8 months na... "Boy...I will try" "hmm...that doesn't sounds like you Carla" "Ewan ko boy..lately...masama parati pakiramdam ko" "But Carla...Jake can die and we don't know his situation..this is a matter of life and death...but anyways...we really need you here..alam mo naman ikaw lang ang close ni Jake" "I know....okay..I will really try Boy" Binaba ni Carla ang phone. Nag iisip ng malalim at kina kausap ang sarile. "My God...what is happening...God please save Jake...don't take him away from me...at alam mo dinadala ko ang anak nya..." Ng Biglang humagulgol si Carla at nag sisigaw... "Buntis with Jordan!!....oh God...why? si Jordan!..." Lumuhod si Carla sa sahig habang umi iyak...di nya malaman kung ano gagawin at kung pano nya itatago at itatanggi na buntis sya. End of Part 1

Deleting the Last Chapter

I am deleting the last chapter. From the reponse, it seems that there was an unfavorable comments. Also, I have to admit that I wrote it in a rush. As a writer, I should be open minded and not egoistic and criticize my own work. Right now, I'm still here in the US, in Los Angeles, doing my job as a Global Network Director of a Real Estate Company. Sounds like the book. I don't even know if this book is guiding my future. Me and Boy got the same salary when we started in Pacific Star Building. I did not also know that there was an existing real estate company in that building. Let's see how it goes. Probably, I will write a side note in regards to the similarity of my life with the characters in the book. I am redoing the "Sabi ng Dyos" from scratch. I hate those flashbacks. Fox